Man alive I am tired and it’s only day two.
And I didn’t expect to feel like giving up so soon. But the fatigue I feel is fierce.
Interestingly though I’m not surprised by the fatigue. I am surprised at my emotional state. Though I am tired which is to be expected getting up so early in the morning. By early in the morning I mean 4 AM sometimes 3 AM.
I emotionally feel peace just in two days of doing this journey and challenge. I feel peace about my circumstances in life, not that I have answers or direction…
Yet.
And when I say Pease I don’t mean yay let’s all hang out and relax.
I also don’t mean a general state of calmness in my mind.
What I have noticed is much more transformative mentally and spiritually. I have noticed that the time from my triggering emotional event to when I feel peace or feel emotionally restored. Is much shorter than it was even a month ago.
I truly believe that this is a result of my devotional time with God. Utilizing things like the honesty tool and journaling the voice of God after reading His word.
Combine with identifying feelings, in common lies that we succumb to about ourselves and our identity.
But also walking myself past common barriers to journaling in general but also journaling a voice of God. All of this has been pretty profound.
I wanna be cleared this isn’t the first time I’ve done something like this in my life. But this time this time it feels different, it feels like I’m ready for it. It doesn’t feel like I’m forcing it, and it feels like it’s much needed.
Thanks for let me share with you. Some big things on the horizon, even some big things today. I’m just grateful to be on the journey with God, for letting me partner with him on His healing process in my life.
A. Geist Production 